Some days I feel like a terrible mom.
There are some days where I feel like Superwoman and Supermom and like this 2 kid thing isn’t so hard.
Today is not one of those days.
I’m having a tough day. I’m trying to count my blessings and yadda, yadda, yadda, but in reality I wish I could just put my life on pause for a few hours, go take a swim or lay in a bath or take a nap, and then come back with a fresh mind and a fresh attitude to handle the rest of the day.
I took the kids to their pediatrician appointment this morning. It was Ali’s 6 month appointment and Raffi’s 2 year appointment. It started off great, but since the appointment was kind of long (questions, exams, and shots for both kids) the kids started to break down. It was past Ali’s nap and she started crying pretty hard, and Raffi had been confined to an exam room for over an hour and started to break down into Tantrumville. I couldn’t wait to get out of there, and when we got into the car I burst into tears.
It isn’t often that I have a being-a-mom-related breakdown. I pride myself on staying calm and on chewing a lot of gum in the moments where I feel like I’m going to lose control. I can power through a tantrum like it’s no big deal and have figured out how to feed both kids and myself at the same time. how to get both kids to bed on my own with minimal crying. how to do the supermarket with one running toddler and one baby in her carrier. The list is long. But some days it all goes to sh$t and I just want to scream and hide under the covers until the day is over.
Being a good mother isn’t easy. It requires patience in trying times and the ability to plan everything ahead and yet be able to be flexible at the same time.
I didn’t really feel like sharing my terrible day with you, but so many people have commented that it seems like this kid thing is so easy for me. I want you to know that some days it IS easy. Some days I have it all figured out and you’re right that it seems easy because it is.
Other days I’m faking it. Like today.
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I don’t think having a terrible day makes you a terrible mom. After a breakdown at his eye doctor’s appointment, Jeff is not allowed to skip Luke’s appointments anymore 🙂
Sabrina, you are definitely a superwoman! I (and many others I’m sure) really respect your honesty about motherhood- I imagine the highs are very, very high but the lows can definitely almost as powerful. Be kind to yourself, S! We all deserve a good cry here and there.
Thank you. I have a toddler who will be 2 in less than a month and a 7 week old. I had a breakdown Saturday afternoon and have been feeling like a terrible mom ever since. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one that this happens to!
You are still supermom to me — even more so for admitting when it feels like total shit. I have bad days with just one and know there are likely many more ahead with two. A good cry can feel very healthy sometimes! Hang in there mama. Bedtime is just around the corner. And thanks for the tip on the gum. 🙂
You are such a good mum and absolutely don’t need to be the super one. I’ve been reading your blog more than a year and it has always been so inspirational reading you, very encouraging for new mums (and not only) indeed.
Plus in my childhood most of my dear neighbours and friends were Armenian and I have very lovely memory of them, so it’s a pleasure to read your blog from this point too.
As my favourite author says, nothing lasts forever, especially childrens’ good or bad days, so that’ll pass soon. We, mums, are stronger than that.
Sabrina, I liked your post, as I am sure many did, also because it so much relates to all of us. I actually had similar feelings today and your post helped me realize once again that I am not alone, and cope with my feeling of guilt. Tomorrow is a new day, it is going to be “easy” again, and you know it. And I think you are still a superwoman even if you can’t be very strong at times.
Please share some of those tips on on handling a running toddler in a store and getting both kids to bed on your own! Being a mama isn’t always easy but it’s so very worth it.
Nothing you said sounded like you weren’t a great mom….it sounds like it was a tough day. letting it get to you doesn’t make you a bad mom. it makes you human.
tomorrow…is another day!!!
Sabrina you are a great “MOM”!!
Happens to me all the time lady! Hang in there. Too bad you live away. We could just cry together. 🙂
tell me now when the next appointment is so I can plan to come with you
As my mother-in-law says: “This is why we celebrate Mother’s Day!” Toughest job no doubt. Hang in there!
You are definitely not a terrible mom. I only have one and some days I can’t figure out how to make it work. The idea of having a second is exciting and terrifying all at the same time. Hang in there – we’re all human and it’s good to get the frustration out.